My name is Ann Giangarra. That’s my husband, Mark and me in the picture, taken in March 2011. We just landed at Ben Gurion Int’l Airport in Tel Aviv, Israel. We were on our way to Jerusalem for an eleven-day tour of the Holy Land. It was an amazing experience to walk where Jesus walked, lived, healed, loved, died and rose again.
I am a Christian and have been saved (born again) since 1990, and delivered from spiritual darkness (depression, panic attacks, confusion, self-hatred, nervousness, suicidal tormenting thoughts, and periodic paralyzing fear) since June of 2012.
As a child, I never did ballet, played any sports, did gymnastics, played an instrument, sang or danced, participated in any school clubs or after-school activities. In school, my grades we average but most subjects were a learning challenge for me.
I am not an expert at anything, nor can I claim any special talents or abilities. But there is one thing I have come to know. No matter what or who we know, no matter what we do, or where we go, accomplish or acquire – nothing compares to the greatness of knowing Jesus Christ my LORD (Philippians 3: 7-9).
My Working Years
I retired from Yale University in May 2015 after 27 years of service (holding four different positions during that time). Before my time at Yale, I worked for a women’s clothing chain for seven years.
As I cycled in and out of depression, nervousness, confusion, and all their other dark companions, I struggled in each job I held to fully understand my complete job duties. I did, however, have strength in my weakness and divine intervention each time I called upon Jesus’ name (as His Word promises). And by His grace, I was blessed with supportive bosses/co-workers (some became good friends) and was more times than not, the recipient of much compassion, patience and grace, all my working years.
A Changed Life
I grew up knowing about God. I could see Him in my brother, who at the age of 19 moved to Tennessee and found salvation in Jesus – The way, the truth, and the life. I knew there was a God, but anger and confusion in my mind and heart led me to believe that God existed for others, but not for me.
There was a big hole in my heart that I tried to fill with a wide range of unhealthy, earthly things. At the age of 30 through my brother’s loving witness, I came to see that the emptiness and pain in my life could only be filled/healed by a total commitment/relationship with Jesus Christ.
So, at the end of my own strength and on my face (literally) I asked Jesus to forgive my many sins, come into my heart/life, and walk beside me each moment of every new day. It wasn’t a lightning bolt, but gradually God began to change my heart and heal my mind.
June 2012 (last bout of depression) – Catapulted to This New Journey ‘Life-Part II’
For more of my testimony and for the details of how Jesus has set me free, please join me on my blog page as I’ll explain how you too, can live an abundant life now – in Christ, Jesus.
My hope and prayer is to be used by Jesus as a vessel of His love and healing power for the whole world. I know this prayer might sound prideful (to some, even delusional), but what God has done for me, He wills to do for ANYONE who will love/seek Him, and take Him at His Word.
I believed; therefore I have spoken. With that same Spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak,… 2 Corinthians 4:13