I have a ‘condition’ I’d like to share with you. The mental health community might label it as – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). Defined by The National Institute of Mental Health as “a common, chronic and long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts (obsessions – fear of germs, need to have things symmetrical or in perfect order, aggressive thoughts towards others ) and behaviors (compulsions – excessive cleaning and/or handwashing, compulsive counting, etc.) that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over.”
The NIMH goes on to say “These symptoms can interfere with all aspects of life, such as work, school, and personal relationships.”
My ‘condition’ is characterized by thoughts (uncontrollable, reoccurring) that consume my mind, attitude and behaviors; have changed my life, and, the way I see it. My life has been overtaken by these constant thoughts, and I am – unwilling to stop them.
I would not say though, that this ‘condition’ “interferes with all aspects of my life.” It is though – an enhancement/empowerment to all aspects of my life.
A New Mind
My mind and thoughts are constantly focused on – …whatever is true, noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, (I) think about these things (Philippians 4:8).
So you see, I do have an obsession – this obsession has a name – His name is Jesus of Nazareth. I am compelled (2 Corinthians 5: 14-15) to follow after, love, and worship Him alone. By His blood and the power of His name, I overcome (each new day). All who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved (Acts 2:21).
What the NIMH would call OCD, as a child of God, I call ‘OCB’ – ‘Obsessive Compulsive Blessing.’ My thoughts have been transformed through the reality of my new life/mind (Romans 12: 1-2, 2 Corinthians 5:17), lived through the power of the Holy Spirit, and for, Jesus my King.
A Sound Mind
As I have stated before in other blog posts, positive reoccurring thoughts have not always filled my mind. My former life (before 2012, when I was delivered from evil) was dictated and controlled by my negative feelings, constantly fluctuating moods, crippling fears, my own worries, and my worries about other people’s feelings, moods, and fears. My unstable thoughts were constantly blown by the winds of uncertainty, and tossed by the continually changing situations (waves) of life.
I never battled with the typical OCD symptoms of obsessions (although, I did have ‘aggressive’/suicidal thoughts towards myself ) or compulsions, but I had plenty of other unhealthy, destructive thoughts and behaviors that, but for God, I would still be gripped by fear and ravished by mental torment.
A New Reality
This isn’t Pollyanna, pie-in-the-sky, hide your head in the sand, oblivious to the every-day trials of life. Nor is it, denial about the hardships that abound in many hearts, homes, lives, and nations. I know many people live with on-going, extremely trying circumstances.
This is “everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith” (1 John 5:4).
The reality for me was that I was out of options. I had tried all the worldly/earthly things that promise fun, fulfillment and a “good time.” In the end, I was lost, empty, ‘dead’, and without a speck of hope. I turned to Jesus as my last hope and He lifted me out of dispair.
Some days are still difficult.
I’m not saying that I never struggle with disappointment or unforgiveness, or that negative thoughts never cloud my mind. I still have many daily challenges in my life and circumstances, and I too, have to choose to practice godliness (1 Timothy 4:7), every day.
When weaknesses, bad attitudes/habits start to darken my perspective, I proclaim God’s goodness, His sacrificial death (so I and the whole world could be set free and live), His power that lives in me, His perfect love for me that NEVER fails; until, like King David, I am “encouraged in the LORD” once again.
The God of Hope
My heart is so sad for others (professing believers and unbelievers) who don’t know or understand, that Jesus is the God of promise (along with all His other amazing, uncountable attributes). The God who died not only for our sins but so we could live a life of triumph, every day, right here on earth. Is anything too hard for God?
Believe God and take Him at His Word – filled with – hope, joy, words of truth and words of life. Stand on His Word no matter what your circumstances look like. Speak His Words of life, agreeing with Him.
Believe ALL things are possible for those who will trust and live by faith, trusting that what is not seen (God’s power in the spiritual realm) is always greater than what is seen. That’s what I did… until His Words of hope became reality in my heart.
Don’t allow your reality to be defined by the 5:30 news, the stock market, Washington D.C., a negative doctor report, etc. Choose to let your reality be defined by the Good News of King Jesus and His Kingdom come…
I pray that you (many) will be blessed by the Truth (John 14:6).
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in You (Isaiah 26:3).
Declaring the end from the beginning, And from ancient times things which have not been done, Saying, ‘My purpose will be established, And I will accomplish all My good pleasure’ (Isaiah 46:10).